xanga, what a snapshot of my teenage life you are.

i now realize. everything ends. in a few months and weeks what matters today, probably wont matter anymore. everything is shifting its temporary. no high hopes for what tomorrow brings. 

whatever it brings it will be change. so this moment here with you right now is important. really important. its a choice. i say i want to be with you more than anyone else right now. if i die on the way home your face will be the last that i see. being here with you means something bby. 

let me give my love to you let me take your hand as we walk in the dimming light oh darling understand everything everything ends. that everything everything ends.

does it scare you? is it a bother.

that i am upfront i am just who i say i am. i am not scared to say how i feel.

whatever is on my mind comes out of my mouth.

does it bother you darling. is the truth too daunting.

i cant fucking make up my mind about what i want.

but you are being a real asshole. after of course i start actually showing you i care about you.

thanks. also, fuck off.

i'm really angry. and i can't tell who its with.

i wish things would have been different. maybe this is to motivate me. i can't hold it in much longer.

i was ready to be vulnerable. like an idiot.

i am not normal. i cannot do this. i cannot be open. i cannot be different or better than i am. and you, you don't care anyways.